Happy Mom's Day greeting...

https://alyn28.wordpress.com/2018/05/14/my-mothers-love-2/

"My LOVE LETTER to GOD and for my other half"

Dear my Future,

I would like to let you know that I am preparing myself to be the best,
so I may be the perfect one for you...

But no matter how I tried to be the
"PERFECT" one,
I couldn't help but to feel disappointed seeing someone else are much better than me...

I am dreaming to be your ideal person...
I am wishing to be the one whom you wouldn't ask for anyone else or anything else from our Creator...
I've been longing to hear you say those cheesy lines told by madly in love couples...
that "I completed you..."
that "I am the answer to your prayer..."
that "I am worth waiting for..." and so on.

So I keep on working to be better each day...
I asked you to wait and give me time so I may bring out all the best in me...
so when the time comes, you won't regret waiting and choosing me...

But there were moments that I suddenly felt tired and exhausted working to match with you.
I want to quit waiting for the signs that God eventually would show me saying,
"IT'S TIME " and "it is you whom He prepared for me".

I just wanted to give my "YES" randomly and try things the soonest,
because inside me I was thinking,
... what if you've already found the best along the way?",
... what if I couldn't be the answer to your prayer?,
... What if seeing my flaws by you would made you realize that it wasn't me whom you've been dreaming of?

Could I still stand up and hope that there's someone else for me and it isn't you?
Could I still work hard as I did, thinking that I deserve more and I won't regret losing you?
Could I still wait a little longer wishing for the best, while everyone else says "I should have chosen you"?

Should I beg GOD to make time flies faster till the day our paths would meet?
Should I ask Him if I waited for His will impatiently thus, I am receiving punishments today, and tell Him that I didn't, He's mistaken?
Should I bargain my life to God for Him to grant what my hearts desires right now?

I really can't think of the best way to make things easier for me...
I feel the pressure around that pushes me to make things quick...

Am I really wasting the time?
Am I really waiting for nothing?
Am I really letting you go and pushing you too far?

I wish someone out there would tell me the answers that I wanted to hear...

but in the end, I need to accept the fact that NOT everyone receives a "YES or an OKAY 👌"

Most of us knew that there's always 3 responses from Above,
a "YES, WAIT and NO"...

But there's only few who understands the difference between WAIT and NO...
as a result, we keep on waiting and waiting cause we couldn't accept the given answer which is "NO".

somebody told me that when a person could still praise God even in trials,
they are the one who are more stronger.
because it is more difficult to thank God during the storm, than during the brightest days.


My GOD,
at least give me a wisdom to understand which is WAIT and which is NO.
And please let my heart accept your "NO".
Only then, I could go on with my life without looking back and thinking about the "what ifs" around me...

I know that you didn't promised us a sunshine every day,
but you've promised a rainbow 🌈 after every storm...
Thus, I stood still during the storms in my life, patiently waiting while working to the best that I could do because you had promised...


Dear My Future,

I may not sure if I already did my best to fit you,
but I promise you that I would always find a way and try harder to please you...

There might be much better than me around you,
but rest assured that I won't change what's good in me and I'll try to be a better version of myself each day...

I might not be your ideal person,
neither your greatest dream nor the answer to your prayer,
but I'll surely be the "unexpected gift" of yours from Above...

I couldn't be the one who completed you
but I would pray, kneel and cry to our dearest JESUS to make you whole, complete and satisfied...


Dear God,

For now,

Make me a better representation of your mercy...
Make me your servant whom you pleases to look at each day...
Make me worthy to call out Your mighty and precious Name in every seconds of my life...

Please guide my future to be, more than you guided me...
Make him more stronger than I could be...
Please let him know You and serve You, more than what I did...
Be his companion, friend, comforter, and requiter at all times...
Don't let him fall out from Your mighty hands...
If he committed sin, please remind him and forgive him...

In our future,

Let us serve You as one...
Give us One Faith and fear to disobey You...
Teach us how to forgive each other
as You have forgiven us always...
May You be the center of our lives
as we are preparing for the greatest reunion that we've been longing for...

These I pray in the Mighty and Precious name of our dearest LORD JESUS CHRIST... 🙏 🙏 🙏